super bored [11 Jun 2004|09:39pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | vanderbilt vs texas game ] well since im staying home on this lonely friday night, i think its about time to update. since i havnt updated lately, ill give a brief description about things that happened this wk. monday started summer school. drivers ed isnt bad but takin notes and two chapter tests each day blows bunghole. after school on monday, i finally got to see morgan after 11 days of waiting. me morgan and dana went to the country club for 2 hrs or something. it was pretty fun. then the original plans changed and me and morgan went to the mall instead of goin to her house. i asked morgan out at the mall on monday. so monday was a great day. the week continued with summer school and thursday i went over to morgans after her mom was finished with her meeting. we watched freddy vs jason. shes a lil puss puss haha jk. shortly after the movie ended, her mom dropped me off at trotwood for my practice. it was a pretty fun practice but it was raining. the balls were slippery but it felt good outside. so yea, thursday was another great day. i cant do anything tonight because my lil sister was originally supposed to go do something tonight. my 8 month old nephew is in town and since my mom's accident, she needs help watching him. so she asked if i could stay home and do something tomorrow. tomorrow i have to wake up at fuckin 8 o'clock and go to practice. i wont be able to sleep in at all for a while. after practice i have a personal trainer scheduled to work out with at golds gym. i should get a nice hard workout there. in the evening, me and morgan are probably going to see a movie. we havnt decided whether to see chronicles of riddick or garfield. of course we all know which would i would prefer but it doesnt really matter i guess. my relationship with morgan is goin so great and thats what i want right now. its like perfect, we click so well. we have so much in common and it seems like we always know what each other is thinking or wants. we talk so much and wont leave each other alone. its like we cant separate. i love it. couldnt ask for more.i know like everything about her already so it feels like weve be going out for a long time. im certain that this one will last a long time. she seems really perfect for me. well i originally thought i had a lot to say but i realize it wasnt that much so im gonna go hit my bench cuh. oh yea i failed to mention two more great things. braves won today and detroit has a 2-1 lead over la. it should be 3-0 but the fuckin rapist got lucky. ok now im leaving, later days... 7 comments|post comment

ahh [22 May 2004|10:07pm] Im through with everything. i dont kno what to do with myself. i fucked up on a huge game in baseball, even though it wasnt all my fault. and i have no idea what to do with jen. i dont want to give up, but i know in the back of my mind i need to. ill never get the chance again. i miss her a lot. i dont kno what to do. today was the longest day of my life. i played so much baseball, i started gettin sick of it. i never thought id say those words. i got like 5 hrs of sleep last night, woke up at 7:30 and went to nicks game because we played the winner of that game. i went home, drove my mom to the grocery store and ran errands cause the medication shes on for her accident wont let her drive. once i got back, i caught a ride with nicks dad up to the game. i started warmin up round 1:30 and we started at 2. i caught the whole game in the blazing heat with like nothing to drink but one lil 12 oz gatorade. the game took over 3.5 hrs. we won 26-21 (yea i know it sounds like a football score). so woo hoo the umpirers were nice and gave us a 30 fuckin minute break when the president of the league told us 45 minutes to an hr. i headed to shitty ass mcdonalds with a team mate, but i guess everything tastes good when you havnt eaten or drank anything all day and youve been out in the sun. we started at 6. it was tied for the longest time at 5 until like the 6 innings when we went ahead 9-6. i went in to pitch and gave up 2. zack came in and gave up 3. then steven came in and gave up 4. we were down 15-9. we started having a lil rally and we scored 3 runs (thanks to me) and it was 13-15 after i stole home. anyways the game is still under protest because the rules of minimal playing time is 1 at bat and 6 consecutive outs. a player only had 3 we just have to find someway to prove it. throughout the day, i got hit by a pitch and re-injured my cracked ribs, hit with a bat (batter let go while i was catching) so now i have a huge welt on my arm, re-opened the huge cut on my knee from sliding, elbow is sore from catching, feet are sore from squating in my cleats that have no padding, and im dehydrated. yea as you can tell, im an emotional/physical wreck on a much happier note, last night was bri's surprise party. although i wasnt there when she was surprised, i heard it was good. so me ricky and justin showed up late cause of our game and only a few people were in the pool cause it was cold. eventually everyone was thrown in and soon after we were all swimming. there was soo many people there. i played zach in basketball and after 2 games i finally beat him. damn hes one good black kid. after that me and bri's mom had a nice secretive talk. shes one cool mom. then me cyndel and morgan watched ricky and tony play n64 some shitty ass game. once tony left the room, ricky killed me in golden eye for like 3 min. by that time it was like 1 and everyone started leaving.since kris vite left already, i had no ride home. mrs helen, the awesome lady she is, drove just about everyone home. i was the last to be dropped off after zach, ricky, tony and ended up round 2 ish. but it was a lot of fun. felt good to actually go out and have some fun. i hope you were surprised bri and HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIANNA (on monday). 4 comments|post comment

hmm might be time to update [16 May 2004|09:52pm] yea so lately i guess life hasnt been bad but still not all i want of it. our team ended up winning every game for the rest of the season and placing 3. our first playoff game is tomorrow. yea were good but enough about baseball. ill recap on my wkend. friday- i hung out with my greatest friends. i went to wet n wild with lauren, jaclyn, and nick. at night we went to randi's dance recital. it was lots of fun actually. randi good job you danced good :). me and evan were kinda out of place at like an all girls dance show but thats ok, we made it pimp. then after the recital we went out to dinner at fazoli's. that was pretty crazy also. i slapped randi in the face with a breadstick. goodtimes. had fun saturday- i slept in til like noon and then went outside and skated all day. we didnt have a game this wkend cause for some reason they didnt wanna start playoffs. nick stayed the night, but whats new. we camped down in the woods that we paintball in. sounds gay but it was cool except for the mosquitoes. today- woke up early, sun rose and woke me up. skated all day again. cracked 2 of my left ribs. not good for my game tomorrow. at like 6 i went to jump in the local pool to cool down. the old fuckin guy said no running on concrete. so i stopped and ran in the grass nowhere near the concrete and he kicks us out. funny. yea so that was my boring day. i have concluded i am a selfish, greedy, jealous lil bastard. i want somethin i cant have. i get jealous over it if somethin happens. and i dont want her to be with ne1 else. yea i kno its life and i have to somehow get over it, but i cant. sure everyone says to move on and try for others, but i dont want to. i dont want ne1 else. yea i used to think those people who like loved somebody they couldnt have or get over were freaks. i used to kinda laugh at them to myself. now im just one of those and it blows. well since im stupid im leaving... im only gonna update periodically. 2 comments|post comment

definitely bored [07 May 2004|11:16pm] well today was great at school. i practically did nothing all day but talk and watch movies. so today in my baby darren's class, romeo left me and k8e so our creative selfs had to make a poem by ourselves. we did pretty good. oh yea davis brought a pineapple to school today. "i was in publix and i thought to myself, i have never bought a pineapple before, so i should buy one." that kid is so awesome. i stayed at home again tonight, but this time it was my fault, ran out of money. so i went to the park and played some kind of deformed manhunt. it was fun i guess. havnt played tag in a while. well once all my friends got home, it got way better. i havnt talked to soo many different people at one time. it was pretty great talkin, it might sound lame, but just tonight was pretty fun. well lauren finds out if she made hunnywhores tomorrow, good luck my dearest friend. me and jen hardly talk lately, like not even as friends. its a good day if i talk to her a good 5 minutes without stopping online and i havnt talked to her on the phone in forever, which is very unusual. tomorrow i have a huge game, it decides which seed we place in the playoffs and its my last start. im gonna kill as long as my arm feels better. i need to ice it once i go to bed. me and kristin wanna hang out tomorrow after my game sometime. i hope we can. shes a super cool, fun girl. UPCOMING EVENTS 1.) umm the friday we have off, the 14, everyone go to wet n wild. so far i almost have lauren b, katie, and lauren f goin. everyone should go. 2.) on the 14, 15, or 16 come and support randi at her recital. the show time for friday is at 7:30. saturday there are three sessions, 11:00 4:30 8:00. sunday it starts at 2:00. its at wshs and the tickets are $10. contact randi for more details. 3.) umcoming wkend also on the 15 or 16 we are going paintballing. anyone who is interested in going ask. 2 comments|post comment

bored [06 May 2004|03:45pm] today wasnt such a bad day. 1st period we fooled around in the computer lab. 2 was last day of bookwork. 3 watched charolettes web. 4 was computer lab. 5 i had to make up my test which i wasnt exactly ready for but still got a 87, not too shabby. 6 we had centers and i tanned my thighs in the light once again. frankie, issac, and kevin were definitely attractive (jealous bitches), not even to mention mr hutchinson. god that guy gets turned on. he excused us early again (he lets us go to get to his salon) so he was walkin behind me katie and randi, i almost bump into a wall after i wasnt payin attention and was picking on randi, and i say "hmm i should go into the guys bathroom to go spy on them" like real loud and he was right behind us. he had to of heard it. it was pretty funny but i guess you had to be there eh? today going to 3 i got kinda upset. you people kno what happened and i guess i over exaggerated. i feel bad now cause both of them werent in the best of moods today. so im sorry to both of you and i didnt mean to make it a big deal. i guess thats the only bad thing that happened all day except for the obvious reasons. right now im sittin here just being super bored. nobody is online well theyre away neway. in about half an hr, my sister, christina, and nick are comin over to finish our game then im goin to watch nick's game tonight. i hope they dont have enough players so i can pool play for them. ive done it like 3 times before. actually once, i played against him and beat him. i felt bad cause he was my ride there and home and they shouldve beat this crappy team but i hit what ended up to be the game winning hit. well since most people who would ever read this doesnt care about baseball, ill catch you kiddos later oh yea, thanks a lot to kristin and romeo. you girls are so awesome. 2 comments|post comment

first entry [05 May 2004|10:34pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | oakland vs new york yankees game ] yea this is my first entry even tho ive had this for a long time. i just never felt like writing in it until now. life was goin great for quite a while and then suddenly it hit rock bottom. still hasnt began to get any better. i dont kno whats goin on, but i wish everything was back to being good. by the time i almost started to be glad atleast shes a friend, i re-read the 3 convos that like ruined everything for me last night and it all hit again. hit pretty hard. i was originally planning on going to school today but i stayed up all night just thinkin about 2 lines that affected me the most. i see almost every one of my friends madly in love with their boyfriends/girlfriends. i mean i used to be in that situation, still am. i just wish everything would go back to being perfect again. i try to forget knowing she doesnt want anything again but the thought just doesnt leave my mind. i understand she doesnt want anything and i have to except that and go on but it sucks. really bad. i mean atleast fwb id like too cause atleast itd actually mean something more than just a best friend (im not saying a best friend isnt great, but my greedy self just wants more out of her). i try to get over her, i really do. like every minute something that we used to do or talk about pops up and makes me think of her. at the moves/mall on friday, i thought i saw her walkin to take a seat in the movies with some guy. the girl had the same walk, same hair, same height, it just looked like her. man i felt so horrible. i asked tony if he thought that was her and he said he doubted it so it made me feel a lil better and then once the girl came to take a seat, i realized it wasnt her and everything was ok then. man i dont kno whatd id do if i saw her hook up with any guy soon. i kno its her life and she doesnt have to regard to any of my feelings, but id hate to see that happen at all, especially recently, while im still stuck on her...hard. it just seems that almost everything in my life is doing horrible right now. i mean i never used to be so emotional, i never used to have any cares in the world. i used to help people solve their problems, and lately its been all my greatest friends helping me out. i appreciate everything you guys do, thanks a lot lauren b,randi, lauren f, kristin, tayler, cory, and albert all listening to my shit for once. on a happier note, my baseball team is playing awesome lately. were kickin ass now. we used to be completely horrible, but now were a threat. its a great time to be improving and coming around cause we only have 2 more games left until we hit the playoffs. were playing errorless ball lately. at playoff time, no team is gonna wanna play us. yesterday we played awesome. john pitched a complete game shutout(7 innings), he gave up 2 hits, 3 walks, and had 12 strikeouts. everyone hit the ball like crazy. i caught the whole game. i threw out 2 of 2 runners that tried to steal on me. we killed 8-0 in 7 innings and i was home by 8. the shortest game ive ever played. well saturday is our next game at 9 vs the astros. its my last start of the regular season. i threw with nick today, and im gonna threw my curve, and knuckle ball in that game. im gonna be dominant, i can feel it. usually all i have is a fastball and change up since ive broke my finger i havnt worried about my curve or knuckle, but after today, im unstoppable in that league. well this is gettin kinda long so ill end here and update tomorrow if i have time. later, dennis 6 comments|post comment

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